Konnichiwa minna-chan! I'm back once more. I have my internet/phone back. I also have my heat back. And soon (if I get my money back) I might be able to get Final Fantasy Advent Children.

Hmmm... what else is new...? Oh yeah! I'm fifteen now. I had my birthday on January 28th. It was really fun and the food was the best food I've ever had. Although when they dressed my mom and me up and took a picture that was embarrassing. -////- Bloody family, most likely my sister is to blame.

Oh yeah! My friend and I are making have two manga ideas. We're already making one of them. One is all about religion-ish type stuff and the other is, to put it bluntly, mansex. XD What a contrast in ideas, huh? And my friend finally finished drawing the first chapter of Ichiban Catastrophe (religion-y manga). We were so happy. Oh yeah. In this little partnership of creativity I write and she draws. YAY FOR TEAMWORK! =3

Let's see, anything else? I have one new poem though it's not any good. But please leave a comment if you can anway.

Why?

Why do we place so much value on gold?

Why must all summers come then die cold?

Why are there clouds up in the sky?

Why do the young sometimes die?

Why must all things we learn we soon forget?

Why do we pass strangers when they’re friends we’ve never met?

Why in autumn do all the leaves fall?

Why do we ask questions with no answers at all?

Anyway, guess that's all for now. Sayonara!

Konnichiwa minna-chan. I wrote two poems. Here they are...

Hell Known as Love
I'll let the words take me where they want to
It doesn't matter to me where
Anything is probably better than staying here
I need to escape and to get away, to leave the all of the thoughts of today

It's stupid and pointless, why do I cry?
Why can't my mind go away just for a second so I can flee from reality?
This heart-stomping pain just won't leave me
Why can't it just let me escape to my fantasy world in peace?

Sleep... sleep... that's what I need
The only thing that could harm me there is my dreams
What I'll wish is reality will only be false
No escape from this hell known as love

Answers I Don't Have
I love him, can’t get him off my mind

Why won’t he leave my thoughts?

Do I want him to leave? Never!

Does he notice me? Does he know I’m alive?

Are these feelings for him even worth my time?

Questions without answers or at least answers I don’t have

Will I love him forever? Will he let my heart go?
I don’t know what to do; my hearts feels like it will explode

Everything I do, I do only for him

Does he know this? Would he care if he did?
Does he know that I love him? Would he ever love me back?

Questions without answers or at least answers I don’t have

Is this love or an obsession or just some curse?

Is this happiness supposed to bring pain and tears?

These questions don’t matter all I know is this:

I love him with all my heart it almost hurts

I will love him forever, is this true?

Questions without answers or at least answers I don’t have

Meh... tell me what you think (if anything reads this thing anymore XD). x_x *is tired as hell* Sayonara!

Konnichiwa minna-chan. I just found a poem and I'm not sure if I put it up yet or not but I'll put it up now anyway.

Fake Wings

Fake wings strapped on my back since you took yours away from me

They cannot fly like yours, they cannot flap

They sit on my back akin to statues and I hate them so

They are cold and even when the wind blows they do not lift me up

Why can’t I replicate your wings? Why must I need them?
Oh my angel, come back to me

Or better yet, use those beautiful wings and bring me to heaven

Okie-dokie, I hoped you liked it as short as it was. Anyway, sayonara.

Konnichiwa minna-chan. How are you? I'm alright, sick but alright. Anyway, as you can tell I changed my layout. WHEE! I'm thinking of changing the size of the picture though.

Anywho, I'm finally back in school. It's not bad and tonight if finally my first night with a normal workload. But I don't feel like talking about that, don't like talking about school once I'm away from it. ^^;

Let's see... anything interesting happening in my life at the moment...? Meh, not particularly. I just felt like writing in here so I could put off my homework for a bit. XD

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;_____; I DON'T WANT ART TOMORROW! I wish I could've switched to drama. u.u

Gah! Can't think of anything to talk about at the moment so I guess I won't say anything more. Sayonara!

Konnichiwa minna-chan! I am back. ^^ While I was away I wrote some poems. None of them really have a title. ^^;

Loving heartache
Which I can't decipher
Do you cause this sweet denial?
Happy days long since past
They can never return, they can never come back
Why do these memories spin round in my head?
Do they think I feel no pain do they think that I'm dead?
So long to happiness, farewell to sanity
If this be my life path, make it a short journey

Okay, these next three are just some lyrics (though not that good lyrics) written to some songs from the Final Fantasy series.

Poem/Lyrics thing #1:

It's winter and so cold
Do you know where I am right now?
Do you care?
Do you know that I'm gone?
I'm alone!

Please someone help me
Please someone rescue me
Please someone save me
So lost in loneliness
Lost in wilderness

In my heart I sometimes dream
Leave the world and all its hateful things
Then I return and look around
Once again reality wins this round

Is it such a hateful crime to wish that
I could survive without you?
Without love?
Can't you see I need you?

Please someone help me
Please someone rescue me
Please someone help me
So lost in loneliness
Lost in wilderness

Poem/Lyrics thing #2

Remember that day when we played in the rain?
I thought that we should and both caught a cold
It's days like that which I recall crystal clear
My only wish is that you were still right here

Memories are cold and cruel when you're alone
They play in my head but erode like stone
My only hope is that these memories don't fade

Poem/Lyrics thing #3

If I cannot see the sun over the next horizon
Can you just stay there with me in the hopeless search?
i don't know if it's worth it to prove your love to me
Because I would love you no matter what, my darling
But you don't care, you just sit there and stare
Without a thought
Not knowing you're breaking my heart
When you start to turn away

The tears I cry don't reach you
You just turn a blind eye
Run through fields with me one more time
Don't forget how we used to be
I just need you to see the love in my eyes
Please don't forget those days
When we laughed, when we cried when I dried your eyes
I need you to be by my side just one more time

And there you have it! Nothing much else to report other than new story/fanfiction ideas and stuff. So sayonara!